I wish I could swallow all the pieces of advice I gave to my friends about not minding accomplishments and rather focus on getting small steps nearer to the goals, however, we all know that sometimes, we can’t fake optimism but I’m not being melancholy today either. There are just days when my mind is clouded with lots of questions on keeping up with my timeline of things, my age, my body, ideals and what not. I don’t see anything wrong with this self-crisis. I even think it’s healthy.
It’s healthy that I was able to re-examine myself and think. Not to put myself down for not getting things done or not striking through on my to-do list notebook but this quite serves as a reminder to push a little further. Knowing that there are a lot of things to learn and discover makes life worthwhile.
Sometimes I feel sorry for slacking. Time even made it feel worse when it runs like a train and I stand there to watch it pass by.
Having daily reminders on my phone didn’t do any good either. My thumb kept on postponing them with a slash from the right going to left. But at least I am aware.
Maybe today or tomorrow I will get better and like all millennials used to say I’ll get my shit together.
I’m a firm believer of notebook and pen make things happen so I wrote down all of my goals. Here are the list of things, I have to do or (I hope to do) before the year ends. (This will be a reminder or a slap in the face )
- Learn Hiragana and Katakana (make kanji a bonus point)
- Get involved with community works again
WRITE (goal since I was born and until today)
- Read 12 books (couldn’t even finish 1 and it’s already March!)
Positive note: I still have 9 months. 😀
- Start an online business (online boutique)
- Start an online channel
- Find ways to save Earth (start at home!)
- Be consistent with my job and any task (including household chores)
Putting so many eggs in my basket this year. I might not get them all done but I will. Someday. If it’s not this year, then maybe in the next year or the next lifetime. The good thing is, I have all of these todos to look forward doing. A sense of purpose.
A pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.